I haven’t posted in a while as I am finding focusing on recovery enough to cope with at the moment! But I have good news! Things are finally getting better! I have turned a corner, I am finding eating less scary, I am less anxious about gaining weight, I am feeling physically and mentally stronger.… Continue reading It’s been a while…
It’s been hard. So much harder than I imagined, but I am doing well! The last few weeks have been the most challenging yet but I have got through them. I have progressed from NG feeding to drinking Fortisip to eating some solid food. I feel less panicky, less anxious, more like my old self.… Continue reading Getting through a tough few weeks
Title says it all really. I am still alive. I am at a new unit being tube fed. They are giving me so few calories it’s scaring me. Less than half what I was managing to eat at the first unit. I’m so scared I am going to die. Anxiety is at an all time… Continue reading Still alive
After weeks of trying to find me a bed in a unit that can NG feed me, one has finally been found. On Wednesday I will be admitted for the second time. The unit is along way from home, I was hoping for somewhere nearer and I will be sad to leave this unit. I… Continue reading Another new beginning
Today marks the start of my seventh week as an inpatient. There are some signs of improvement: my weight has increased a little bit, I am eating a tiny bit more, I am having more good days than before. But overall I haven’t made a lot of progress. I came in to the unit voluntarily,… Continue reading Another week has passed
I had a mental capacity assessment today as my psychiatrist and nurses didn’t think I had the capacity to consent to treatment. The result is that I have been sectioned under the mental health act. I have to remain in hospital and comply with treatment and wait for a bed in a unit that can… Continue reading Sectioned
Things aren’t going well. I am still not managing to eat everything on my meal plan. I am not gaining weight. They are looking to send me to another unit where I can be NG fed. Tomorrow I am having a mental capacity assessment as they think I need to be sectioned. I hoped things… Continue reading No improvement
After all the confusion and changes of plan about where I would be admitted, it finally got sorted, I arrived and begun to settle in. But I am really struggling with the meal plan, I am barely eating, most of my meals are just Fortisip supplements. My consultant has warned me that if things don’t… Continue reading More Uncertainty
Chicken Risotto 