I’m craving binge food. I’m craving food. It’s taking everything in my power to stay at home and not walk out to buy chocolate to binge on. I’ve tried to eat a little bit more, to curb the binge urges, but the urge is still there, strong as ever. Minute by minute I’m congratulating myself… Continue reading Day 2: Minute by minute
…and I didn’t binge! Success. I am still battling through minute by minute, and I have succeeded mainly by reminding myself that I just have to get through today. As though I’m giving myself permission to binge tomorrow. But I will worry about tomorrow tomorrow. One day at a time.
I’m struggling through each minute at the moment. I just want to binge. I don’t know why I feel like this? After years of restriction and starving myself, suddenly I want to be eating every minute of the day. It seems so illogical. I am used to starvation, to feeling hungry, to not eating, to… Continue reading Another attempt: Day 1 – The day is not over yet
Yesterday was day 1. I didn’t binge. I didn’t go to the shop and buy the binge food that I had bought every day for the previous six days. Instead I went for a day out with my mum. We went to the Ideal Home Exhibition in London. It hadn’t occurred to me that there… Continue reading Bingeing Accountability: Day 1
This last week has been full of achievements! I have eaten snack out with a member of staff I have been allowed to have group snack out with the other patients and staff I have eaten a whole plate of rice, a food that a few weeks ago I could not touch at all without… Continue reading Progress
I haven’t posted in a while as I am finding focusing on recovery enough to cope with at the moment! But I have good news! Things are finally getting better! I have turned a corner, I am finding eating less scary, I am less anxious about gaining weight, I am feeling physically and mentally stronger.… Continue reading It’s been a while…
Everything has finally be confirmed. On Monday morning I will be admitted to an inpatient unit. It is not in the city that I did not want to return to. I don’t know anything about this unit, but I am doing my best to go with a positive attitude. I really hope that this can… Continue reading Finally, a definite decision