This weekend I am at home again for the last time before discharge on Tuesday. I have come to the end of a 7 month hospital stay. How do I feel about coming home for good? Nervous. Scared. I don’t know if I can do it. Life just seems to be a conveyor belt of… Continue reading Anorexia and I fight for survival
This is the 100th post on Chicken Risotto Blog and to celebrate I have compiled a list of the top 10 posts according to my lovely readers. If you please, have a little read and comment away, I’d love to know what you think. Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read my… Continue reading 100th Post Party!
It’s Friday evening. Most people my age are busy getting ready for a night out. Sitting in front of the mirror, music blaring, friends chatting, excitement for the night ahead. You get the picture. My Friday night was a little different. I was in my pyjamas, tears streaming down my face, striding down the road… Continue reading A walk in my pyjamas
Following on from Parts One and Two. So, I can finally answer the question. Do I have another label? No. No I don’t. I am glad as I was convinced that this was not the right diagnosis for me. I think there may be something else going on beyond anorexia and anxiety and depression, but… Continue reading Another Label? – Part Three
I can hear voices, whispering behind me, nasty, vindictive voices. Is that normal? Sometimes they tell me not to eat, that I’ve eaten too much. “You’re so greedy!” they hiss, “You are going to put on so much weight. Fat. Fat. Fat.” Other times they ignore what I am eating and just focus on insulting… Continue reading Hearing Voices
Monday mornings (aka weigh day) are always challenging in an inpatient ED unit. Today has been particularly stressful. It was difficult to cope with my weight this morning, and then I was expected to go into the dining room and eat breakfast. I feel like I took a step back as I didn’t finish it,… Continue reading I need to learn Russian
This blog is all about asking the big questions. But seriously, why are there so many different types of pasta? I’ve been here before. Standing in a supermarket aisle, panicking. What am I supposed to pick? Why is there so much choice? I just want some pasta. But I am overwhelmed by the choice. Pasta… Continue reading Why are there so many different types of pasta?