My meal tonight was the same as it is most nights – veggie sausage and veg. My family had Saturday night pizza and chips. I was so jealous. I used to love pizza. But I didn’t have any. I hate anorexia. It takes the joy of food away from me. I can’t enjoy pizza anymore. … Continue reading My family ate pizza
It’s Friday evening. Most people my age are busy getting ready for a night out. Sitting in front of the mirror, music blaring, friends chatting, excitement for the night ahead. You get the picture. My Friday night was a little different. I was in my pyjamas, tears streaming down my face, striding down the road… Continue reading A walk in my pyjamas
This blog is all about asking the big questions. But seriously, why are there so many different types of pasta? I’ve been here before. Standing in a supermarket aisle, panicking. What am I supposed to pick? Why is there so much choice? I just want some pasta. But I am overwhelmed by the choice. Pasta… Continue reading Why are there so many different types of pasta?
I haven’t posted in a while as I am finding focusing on recovery enough to cope with at the moment! But I have good news! Things are finally getting better! I have turned a corner, I am finding eating less scary, I am less anxious about gaining weight, I am feeling physically and mentally stronger.… Continue reading It’s been a while…
It’s been hard. So much harder than I imagined, but I am doing well! The last few weeks have been the most challenging yet but I have got through them. I have progressed from NG feeding to drinking Fortisip to eating some solid food. I feel less panicky, less anxious, more like my old self.… Continue reading Getting through a tough few weeks
It’s a precise routine. I carefully pour my milk into the little measuring jug, ready for breakfast. I add a few drops to my tea and return the bottle to the fridge. After a few failed attempts at trying semi-skimmed milk, I am back to the safe skimmed variety. But this morning something is wrong.… Continue reading Suspicious Minds
This week is Eating Disorders Awareness Week. The focus this year is on the importance of early intervention and diagnosis. When I first became unwell, I was fortunate enough to have a GP who immediately referred me to the eating disorder service, and I was able to access treatment very quickly. To highlight the importance […]