I weighed myself this morning. I’m not supposed to. Once a week, that is all I’m allowed. But who can cope with that? I need to know my weight. Every day. So I weighed myself this morning. My weight is the same as yesterday. It’s killing me. Why haven’t I lost? Did I eat too… Continue reading Monday morning thoughts
This post contains description of lying about weight – if this may trigger you please click away! So, this week was week two of me being in charge of monitoring my weight. I told my therapist I weighed a kilo more than I actually do. I hated telling her that. Not because I hated lying… Continue reading Weighty Lies
So, this week’s update… I am being discharged from the eating disorder service. Considering how much I am struggling to eat, my meal plan long abandoned and am losing weigh once again, this seems as strange step. But my psychiatrist thinks I have borderline personality disorder and is referring me to the team that deals… Continue reading Mental health services are bizarre
The main reason that I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder is my mood swings. My moods are very up and down. I have a few good days, followed by a few bad ones, and then the cycle repeats. On good days I am getting my life sorted. I want a job, a car,… Continue reading Today I’m feeling good!
Questions are swirling around my mind. It’s a big diagnosis to take in. Do I have borderline personality disorder? What does that mean? How long have I had it? Can I be helped? Did it cause my anorexia? Is something wrong with my personality? What should I do? My psychiatrist described two different types of… Continue reading Do I have Borderline Personality Disorder?
So, today I received a new diagnosis which has inspired me to write a blog post for the first time in a long time – apologies for the long silence! Today my psychiatrist has told me that I have Borderline Personality Disorder. There have been questions for a while as to whether I have another… Continue reading Borderline Personality Disorder and Anorexia
Chicken Risotto 