After years of very strict restricting, I am slowly re-introducing myself to food. Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend and ate a burger and fries, followed by a chocolate brownie sundae! I am continuing to amaze myself at what I can do. I feel like I am being re-introduced to the concept of food. … Continue reading Anorexia and being re-introduced to food
For the second day in a row I have eaten no more than I planned. I feel more in control now, the binging urges have calmed. I have followed my meal plan, I feel good. This evening I am going out for a burger with my boyfriend. I am a bit stressed about it, as… Continue reading Still going well
In 3 weeks time I am going on holiday. There is going to be a pool. I love swimming but am already dreading the thought of wearing a swimming costume. Everyone will be able to see how fat I have become through my weeks of binging. I am determined to stop now so that I… Continue reading New week, new start
I was at home on my own this morning and I resisted the urge to go out and buy binge food which I have taken to doing every time I am home alone. Just got to keep going through the rest of the day now.
Still going strong. I have just got home from seeing friends, so now the hard bit is going to be getting through the next few hours. I need to find a distraction to keep myself occupied until dinner.
Ok, so here we go again, Day 1. But this day 1 will be different, I am determined. I will not binge today. I will not restrict either. But I will not binge. I am so frustrated at the moment. Everyone keeps telling me that once I am properly following my meal plan and not… Continue reading I am determined this time!
I don’t even have the words to describe how angry I am at myself. I want to die.
