Everything has finally be confirmed.
On Monday morning I will be admitted to an inpatient unit. It is not in the city that I did not want to return to. I don’t know anything about this unit, but I am doing my best to go with a positive attitude. I really hope that this can be a turning point for me. This is rock bottom. I want to start getting better.
I am sure that the enormity of the situation has not hit me yet. I am counting down my last meals at home, my last meals that I can eat what I want, as I want.
I am counting down the hours to the unknown.
But I am also counting down the hours that I will feel like this. This constant panic and fear and anxiety. I want to start feeling better. I want to make steps forward.
Monday 8th May 2017 marks the beginning of a new chapter in my journey – hopefully a chapter that is more positive than the last one!