I need to stop losing weight now.
My ECG has showed ‘worrying changes’. I am on complete bed rest, not even allowed to walk around the house. I am under strict instructions to drink two supplement milkshakes a day. At the moment I can’t even manage one. But I don’t want to die. I’m so scared. I am so tired and weak.
There is still seven days until the inpatient bed is available for me.
I will keep battling.
I want to keep losing weight but I know I need to stop. I need to accept that this will be my lowest weight. I can’t go any lower. I have never consistently gained weight in all the time that I’ve been ill. The thought of it is terrifying. But I have no choice.
It’s life or death.
One milkshake for today done!
I will start the next one this afternoon.
I will not die.