I need to sort myself out.
The past few weeks and months I’ve allowed myself to drift along. I haven’t pushed myself. I’ve been at home since early November, and I’ve settled into a routine with my food.
It’s not a good routine though. It’s not going to help me recover.
I am desperately trying to choose recovery.
I’ve got two weeks to make ‘significant improvement’ or I will be admitted. I honestly don’t want that. I want to get better at home. I just don’t know how.
I have a strict meal plan to follow over the weekend. I’ve tried. I really have. But I just can’t do it. I’ve added in a few little snacks. I’m hoping it will be enough.
This morning I’m supposed to have increased my breakfast, and had a mid-morning cereal bar. I didn’t even try with breakfast. I am going to give the snack a go though. I got as far as getting it out of the cupboard. I thought maybe I’d have half. But then I put it back. I’ll try again. I really will.